Feeling like a boomerang. Back again! ARG!!

[mac-ct]

Now I'm vacillating people.

I'm getting to the point of saying "balls to it all". It could even be the best thing that could have happened. A BIG clean out of my life. A clean start at 55!!!!!!
Oh dammit this isn't right. NONE of this is right. My crud or the W's. Need to focus.

And after not seeing her for three days, that could be good. It'll allow me AND her the space to really really think. It was a blessing last time. I can only pray it will be now.

Now is THIS what you want to see people? No flippancy. Just me down to the bone

What can I do for her? Nothing except work on me. On my own.

so missing her in my arms

Mac