saw my reflection in the glass doors at mil's house as i was walking by the pool, and i just watched this really confident looking stranger walking by. i just stared and found myself thinking - who is this?
i have changed so much that i don't recognize my own reflection. i walked in and told mil about it and she gave me this gentle smile and said, yes, every time i see you it's as if you transformed some more. i was so pleased:)
then soon after, driving the boys back to my place - a thought popped into my head - oh my gosh - i'm not the person h left 10 months ago. that means i don't have to keep thinking and feeling what i did before.
that i am a stranger to h in some ways. i know the essence of me is still present, but it's being manifested in a completely different way now -one i haven't yet become accustomed to...
i just find myself smiling all the time...
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
