"I find myself being more jealous of him having a relationship that him not being with me. I want to be in a relationship, to have someone to share my day with, who looks at me with attraction in their eyes, who holds my hand, laughs with me, etc. I am missing that right now."

i feel the same way, brit. my H is not in a relationship (that i'm aware of) but i sometimes wonder if i really want HIM or just someone? would i want him back if i had an opportunity to be with someone new, someone who loved me for myself and didn't have all the history we have? i'm much wiser now but i don't know if my H could appreciate it...

M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing