I'd urge you to learn to embrace some ambiguity. You've changed your mind and heart several times in a short span.
both of you have and even though your last post sounded at peace, so did the one with the opposite message before.
Just take some breaths. You do NOT need to decide anything so fast OR with such finality,
If you still see him as a "boy" you don't want to be married to, in a week, and in a month and in 6 months, THEN you can decide to decide.
No need to know for certainty this second. That "certainty" is an illusion when you force it anyhow. You're so determined to know one way or the other
that you are pushing and pulling.
No wonder he is afraid. The anger you feel is just under the surface and I think he senses it a lot. I don't know how he mistreated you but both of you seem to be escalating things when anger flares, which is often.
Have you considered going to Retrovaille? Look into it. It's a very healthy thing for marriages in trouble.
even if you do end up divorced, you're likely to get along a lot better and to see things his way more. OR at least not interpret his actions so negatively.
For instance, I thought his interest in meeting the daycare providers was totally reasonable. I'd have been concerned and hurt if my h showed no interest in that decision.
Just another point of view.
Do look into Retrovaille though.
It has worked miracles, and I know we got a lot out of it in just one weekend (but do the follow up program too).
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
