Time for a new thread. Driving around listening to an old CD my brother and I made about 10 years ago. My brother laughed and laughed at my song choices. If you read them in order it is pretty funny. Basically the titles spell out falling in love then ending the R. I will share later. But I was listening to Paint it Blackand realized my darkness is passing. I have cried and been a little sad this week.
My STBXH has been out of town. This has been a very calm time for me. I am sleeping like a baby. I did have weird dreams last night, but most likey from the all-night long birthday party S22 threw for his friend. They didn't wake me up, the dog throwing up a slice of pizza someone fed him did....
I finally got the papers all corrected and ready to sign from my L. He said some things to me that I don't want to share on here. But it is all in order, and if STBXH signs it and I give it back to the L and he files it, I can be through the Big D in 4-8 weeks.
And so it goes. I still feel laid open wounded. And want to just be done feeling that way. But I do feel better ev ery day. My depression has really got me down, I am not motivated to do anything. But I keep picking out a few tasks and just stepping through them.
So my new life, when I build my new dream kitchen, and whatever else I do, will be filled with all the colors I love. Never again will I think about the room being acceptable to both of us. From now on it is all about me.
Aloha, I'm off to standup paddleboard. My flat stomach is the envy of my friends and I know that SUP is what is doing it.
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
