h stopped by without calling and walked in (without knocking)
s and i were just sitting down to lunch with beautiful plates. he had brought the rest of s's stuff over. i happily thanked him and asked him if he wanted to hang out - and he sat down at the dining table with us and opened some mail.
a lot of direct eye contact - a little intense, and then after about 15 mins he said he had to go.
so, its been several months since he sat at the table with us - i could see he wasn't agonized and uncomfortable, so may casually ask him over to dinner next week or ask if he wants to come and fire up the bbq.
need to find some time to sit here and write out m goals again more clearly.
i have done much much better this morning - 2 big things off my list. i woke up and looked around and thought - this is okay - and actually felt serene for a few moments.
there was a lot of stuff to work through this last week, some of it triggered by events around me, some of it actually triggered by this bootcamp project.
hope you're well zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
