TM, I agree w/Seeking...you've grown a lot and will continue to do so. You have given this situation all that you have to offer and she's still on the Mother Ship.
As for your lawyer drawing up the paperwork, I think it's a good idea. She's very much aware of the situation and the type of lawyer your wife has. I will never understand how some of them find such dingy lawyers. My xh's lawyer was just terrible and as much "out to lunch" as he was.
Hang in there...much of the weight of this ordeal will lift once you are divorce.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.