Thanks JKS, Zig, Vero, and Reaching. Your words have really helped me today. I really love you all. Another update -- H called me early this morning and asked if he could borrow my car for his trip with his brother (which he is going on instead of going to Paris with me). WTF? I really didn't care about him using my car while I'm gone and when he came over he said that it was really sweet of me to agree (my car is more comfortable for long rides) and said that he had missed our connection when we had been estranged. I told him that I agreed our old marriage was dead. That was my 180. It totally shocked him. I could see it in his face. He asked me what a new relationship between us would look like (other than marriage, I'm assuming) and I said that I would have to think about it. He called me sweetie and again gave me a big kiss, ILY upon leaving. So at least the last memory he has of me is positive now (instead of the driveling picture I left him with yesterday). You all give me strength and hope and that, in this world, is truly priceless. Thanks for making me feel less alone.
