This is not looking good! (Long post...)

[LostIn407]

What helped me the most was to stop talking to my friends about it. My W has said the same thing to me.

All that is important is what you think and how you feel. Naturally, if your friends say something, your feelings will change because you are aligning with what they think is right.

My W and I were talking the other day and this topic came up. We both talked about how we stopped talking to some friends because we didn't want to hear their opinions anymore. It is like you are being judged.

A mutual friend that was one of my groomsmen in my wedding, his first response to me when he heard was "F that, you are done. Get a lawyer."

One of her bridesmaids told me "She's done, move on. What the h3ll is she thinking".

My mom said "Move on. If she doesn't love you, you can't make her."

My best friend is telling me that I can't move towards R until I get an unconditional surrender from her.

Her sister told me to file for D because that is the only thing that is going to wake her up.

The list of what I heard goes on and on.

It was only after I started to live for me and make my own decisions based on what I wanted did I start to recover. My wife and I aren't close to R, but we are making progress. Something that wouldn't have happened if we listened to everyone's opinions.

"I'm just really scared that I'll never fill the wife size hole which appeared in my life."

This scares me too, it is natural. But to be honest, the hole is shrinking for me. I used to think I would never find someone like my W again. She is beautiful. But honestly, there are more beautiful women out there. There is someone out there that will want to love me and be with me. I know this. I know if there comes a day that I decide the M is over, I will find someone else.

The one sign/step that I want to see so bad right now is to talk to my W every night before I go to sleep. I miss my W being the first and last person I talk to everyday. We text each other good morning almost everyday, so we are making progress. But as I laid in bed last night, I didn't know what we would talk about if we did talk every night. This situation moved us apart. We need to rediscover each other again.

Time heals all wounds. In time, this hole will shrink. I promise you that. Your dependence on her will start to fade.