Thanks for all the support. I'd expected to hear that without NC there would be no hope, so now I jave some.

I really wish I had not been spying on her. I know more than I want to now and I feel more inadequate for it. All the other thrashing I went through may have damaged the marriage beyond help. She wants separate accounts and she is talking of me "being on the rebound" and how we are going through changes, but I shouldn't believe much of this I guess.

Thanks for the rules 25yearsmile. I will definitely print them out and read them every day. I'm trying to get the books, too trusting, but we are on a trip camping with the inlaws for a week. We go every year and its a good time for us to be together. Unfortunately, she has taken every oppurtunity to call and text him. This trip seems to have made them grow closer. She barely tries to hide it. The trip also reminds me of all we will lose if we end it. It's very hard to follow the rules in this situation, but I will keep trying.

I will try and post this in the newbie section, Veroprado, if the moderator will allow it.

I wish I had found this board earlier. It's great to have support.


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Me: 42 WW: 46
Married: 14y
D-Day: 5/18/2012
D 12, S 8
Status: In my room, but A Continues