This is not looking good! (Long post...)

[jks]

mab, I'm going to challenge you... start talking positively.

It's easy for other people to tell you that you should just look at your M as finished because it doesn't directly affect them. Do what feels right in your heart. If you don't want to be finished then continue on. But try to stop the negative thoughts. (I know it's hard, but put your focus on changing this.)

Make a list of the things that you're grateful for in your life.

If you look at the big picture, we really have a lot to be grateful for. 25 posted this to my thread and it gives a really great perspective...

SIDENOTE--

You hit the nail on the head when you realized in the grand scheme of things how lucky we are. This is key to making it thru our dark nights...

No one is shooting at us or raping us or kidnapping our son's to be soldiers in their "army". That is happening now, as you read this, to someone else.

We have shelter. A bad storm won't cave in our "home".

We have food and it's in our ELECTRIC refrigerators....we HAVE refrigerators...

and as financially strapped as we may feel, we know there will be some food in there when we open the door to our refrigerator and again, tomorrow there will be something to eat.

WE have access to health care, our children were vaccinated, and they are healthy. We are well too, with no deteriorating illness or debilitating disease nor are we amputees from war or maimed...(my h works with Wounded Warriors and it's a powerful thing to see a 25 y/o woman missing her hands, but feeling that they are "on fire", b/c that is what her nerve endings tell her brain).

We know our h's are alive. They did not disappear in the desert or jungle.

Despite the r problems we have, you know you are physically surviving this day...this week and this month.

These facts ^^^above, mean that our lives are in the top 3% of lives, worldwide....

think about that some time. In the grand scheme of things our pain is real but it's not eternal or fatal. We are far FAR more fortunate than the vast majority of women in the world.

When I hear someone say "this is so unfair" I just say 'Fair'? Go to Africa...


I hope what I'm saying is making sense...