good signs, bad signs, or nothing at all

[MrBond]

Sorry to hear that. You know, of course that you haven't been DBing this whole time. Have you ever thought that if you actually followed the advice, that things would be different?

What I see is that you've stayed in a depressed state of mind and are defeating yourself. You still have a chance to change things, but if you don't want to, then, good luck.