First, great job on concentrating on your lifestyle!
Second, neither of you are the same people you were a few years ago, and things won't necessarily happen the same way. That being said, because of what's happened, it's totally reasonable for his going away to trigger anxiety in you. And while I obviously wouldn't recommend you say anything to him about being worried about what he'd do while he's gone, I think it would be more than fair to say that you could ask for some reassurance from him because this will be hard for you.
Finally, so sorry to hear about your friend! You give great advice sweetie, and you do okay with the DBing too. It's hard for you to see that from the inside, but trust us, you do great.
(((Mishka)))
Michelle - Proud DR Rockette S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09 http://tinyurl.com/27j9qo2