I just hope I haven't completely messed it all up. I haven't been in touch since she was round on Saturday and am not going to till I go to toronto for a break in two weeks. I'll let her know that the house is empty and that of course she's more than welcome to stay here if she wants. I've been exercising a lot (lost about 50lbs, want to lose about another 15), bought a whole new wardrobe, new haircut. Am volunteering, not drinking, trying to sort out my job, have been keeping her garden in check (more or less). I just find it really hard when she tells me not to get false hope, to take meals out with other people and things in that vein.
