It sounds like you're in a panic about this. Take a break from thinking about it and get busy with something that makes you feel good about yourself. Consider it more when you're feeling calm and objective.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.