If I had time and I may at some point I'm going to dig out the exact date when I thought about running away back home. And I recognised that in my life I have often thought that moving would make things better. During H and I's marriage we made major moves (over 2000 miles) TWICE...
And I decided that THIS time I would stand still. I think that we can romantize home. And only remember the good and think that all the wories and pain and problems are only existing here and wouldn't be there. And it would be a fresh start etc.
I know exactly how you feel. And I had to stop looking at beautiful artwork from home, listening to music from home, etc. I had to stop because I was only torturing myself. In the same way that looking at old pictures of me and H was torturing myself. I decided that I could have a life here without him!!! And I started "enjoying the strawberries" that were right there...my village, my countryside, so many shops and things I'd never visited before.
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I understand how you feel...it will pass, Z. In the meantime I like the way that Bug put it....just REST.
