Thanks jg, I just had to be talked down from a near panic by my sil. This is seriously messing me up! Re the Facebook thing, we're still friends and it just came up as a new status thing. I'm not snooping, my brother works in email management for google and gave me some very good advice regarding how pointless it was. The attack was triggered by a careers meeting which I'm at which just made everything in the future incredibly scary. Everything I've worked towards career wise and at home had just fallen apart and it all got too much. Am feeling better now but it was quite a shock. The fact we meet up on Saturday didn't help either. What's so frustrating is that I think I can address the things she is concerned about wrt me pretty easily but she won't talk about it. Her problems which she is determined to face alone are a different matter and I know I can't do anything about those. In fact my presence may stop her dealing with them so has a role in my sitch. Goals for me include sorting out a new job, hence the meeting today. Learning to fly a plane, which I need to lose weight to do. I'm still above the max weight limit for a light aircraft. I also need to address my low self esteem which I'm working on in IC.
