Hey Zig, I just meant whenever I make the decision to "do" something, it usually ends badly. For example, I snoop, see something I don't like, confront H, and a R conversation happens. Usually ending with me feeling bad.
Whenever I am basically being my happy, lovable self (this I've realized is actually my true self if I can keep my walls down), my interactions with H go much better. Basically I'm being still and not actively "doing" anything.
