flirted a bit - threw out an audacious heavy hint (he actually responded by saying "you're bad"), and looked and felt sexy gorgeous and at ease.
h wasn't not receptive - but definitely fighting it. didn't really care. he stayed hanging out with us for a lot longer than i expected and we even had a "family moment" together , the three of us.
one of my gf's exclaimed "zig you look gorgeous tonight' as i came up and joined them. which surprised me - but definitely seemed to affect h. yay gf!! she was scheming tonight for sure, later we were all lying together on the blanket and she made me move over insisting they needed more space so i was an inch away from h. i joked and said i don't bite, you know, and he replied yes you do. so then i said, yes but i haven't for a very long time.
Every time I do, bad things happen.
what do you mean by this roro? it puzzled me a bit.
sorry you couldn't go out to see the fireworks. ours here weren't too impressive.. but there were hundreds of people out there and a band and it was a lot of fun
labug - i am resting - in the sense that i'm just doing what i like around h and he can make of it what he will, not my problem. when i say doing what i like - i'm just being my happy bubbly self and feeling good, and just loving them and being affectionate and acting like i always did actually acting a lot happier (without all the [censored] that used to come between the good times). if either of them (H or s) can't handle it, it's their problem not mine.
zig
ps: as for all the "angst" that came up - it came up and out and i feel relief. and all the meditation really helped. one more step on the road to recovery, eh?
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
