W came over with S for steaks. Then she invited me over to her place to play at the pool with S and watch the fireworks show from her balcony afterwards.
I had a good time playing with S. I am glad we were able to spend the day together.
I wanted to grab W in a familiar way a few times as she looked great. But I restrained myself.
S asked me to stay over because it was late and he didn't want me to die in a "disasterous crash" (where do they get this stuff?) I said thanks buddy but I should get back so I will be ready to go to work tomorrow. And with that I left.
I'm proud of myself for keeping it "professional" with W (for lack of a better term).
I wanted to text after leaving to tell her how great she looked and what a good time I had.
I didn't.
One of her complaints was that I didn't compliment her anymore. When we were dating and on up into our marriage I flattered her regularly. Somewhere along the line I quit. I thought about making that a 180 but I don't think it's time for that 180 yet.
I'm still faking it till I make it in regards to moving on. Compliments could be perceived as persuit. I think?
