Maggie you're right - definitely didn't have the swollen finger issue!
Came home from work a little early today because I was still feeling under the weather. H asked how I was feeling, offered to make me dinner, offered to make me soup, and offered again to drive me to the airport tomorrow for my trip (in a voice that conveyed that it was silly for me to pay for a cab when he could just drive), and I declined them all.
In a way this is hard because one of my top 2 LLs is acts of service. So I feel conflicted at declining these things because I'm depriving my own tank. But over the past few months it's been clear that accepting these things doesn't work in terms of changing his thoughts on D so I need to stop doing what doesn't work, eh? Filling H's words of affirmation and quality time tanks didn't work, either, and physical touch is out of the question right now.
I have a GAL scheduled for after I get back from my trip with someone I knew in college who I haven't talked to much recently but who also recently D'd. We actually live really close to each other so it's silly we haven't seen more of each other in the past. That's okay - looking forward now.
