Indecision and the affair continues (part 3)

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H has been gone two weeks and won't be back until Sunday. On Sunday, his new place is available and he is going to start moving. He talked to the kids about it and they are excited. I was thinking it'd be a conversation we'd have with them together, but oh well. His new place sounds fun (of course...everything with him is) and I think he'll have them pick out some new furniture, etc.

I'm assuming he didn't talk to them about divorce.

I'm trying to stay strong. Tomorrow, I'll take the kids to a 4th of July event and then out to our lake house. We'll likely be alone to hang out and watch fireworks. We'll just stay a night and then come home. I need to go to a meeting/work on Friday. The 4th is hard because I feel like we've always done something fun as a family...this is the first year I'm alone with the kids.

H continues to feel so selfish to me and in his own world. I am just choosing to let it go. We have barely talked since we went to the counseling appointment.

I'm continuing to try to make plans with friends and work out. I think the new church I started going to is really a blessing. Some women from there invited me out on Sunday to hang out...one of the women is going through a divorce right now too and seems like a potential friend.

Any way, I guess life is quiet but pretty good. I really need to keep remembering how blessed I am.

Happy 4th everyone!