So the news is that the judge ruled in favor of our son living with me here in CA, at least for a year (until our son reaches school age).
It's obviously a bittersweet moment for me. My wife has a decision to make now: to move to SC or not to. She was very bitter after hearing the ruling and afterwards during mediation, towards me or my one of my church friends (who was there as my support and who was trying to console my wife as well). In mediation, she went as far as to deny she ever said anything on Wednesday night about trying to live together again to work things out (for the sake of our son, at least) or any such topic. When the mediator commented that: "Oh, is there talk about reconciliation?" She immediately (and I sensed spitefully) replied that she doesn't want to be married to me. She then looked at me and said, "Sorry I gave you that impression."
Is this where "believe half of what they say and none of what they do" (or is that backwards) applies too? Some people told me today that there's the sign, Alamo, she really doesn't love you anymore. But like I said, she was being very bitter. After all, she just had her "power" taken away from her, been informed that she'll only see our son for 3x30 days for the next year (if she moves to SC) and that she'll have to fork up for my legal fees pertaining to the false allegations (which would probably be about half of the total cost).
I still have a LOT to process myself, about the outcome, the hearing, about our son, the present, the future. Even though my expectations weren't high, I am also a little disappointed and heart-broken that my wife, at the time of this writing, didn't choose to sacrifice something extra or let her wall come down when push came to shove.
I still love her, but now I starting to feel like I've tied myself to the wrong pier. Or maybe, this is another of God's tests. He might be telling me: "One battle at a time, Alamo. You can't win everything at once." Perhaps I still need to be patient and give my wife time to heal.
