Still Afloat and moving Forward

[BeingMe]

Thanks Snodderly! Stepping back it is. I'm fairly detached still, so no harm done. I love him, but I feel removed from that love ... if that makes any sense. I will be fine, if he decides to leave and divorce now. Who knows, I may be the one doing that if I feel that it's just getting too long. I don't have much hope of a renewed R. I don't see that he will change at all, but until I'm sure of what to do otherwise, I'll stick around. He's not mean, still takes care of us as a family, calls often, so no reason to leave just yet. I've got my GAL activities to keep me occupied, and I really am NOT interested in pursuing any new R's. I'm pretty much a one-man girl. If this ends, I can't see myself with someone else.

Okay, this may seem weird, but sometimes I feel as if he's waiting for something from me, while I am waiting for something from him. It's so confusing. I have said all I had to say a long time ago, and I am not a mind reader, so not sure what to do with that feeling. It's why I thought it a good idea to test the water.