Blood on the Tracks

[tested metal]

STBXW is going off on me because I want to pay D1's school directly instead of paying her as was intially agreed (because I was told that there couldn't be any other way of doing it at the time). The school takes money out for the tuition directly from her account. I told her that I had time to reconsider the issue and would feel better paying directly and working it out with the school.

I can see where STBXW would be ticked, but I want to make sure that my half of D1's tuition is being paid and that I am not paying any extra that STBXW doesn't have to pay. She is already lobbying for Childcare assistance for the tuition and would charge me full price. Being I am in financial straights myself, I don't like that idea.

There has got to be a way that the school can take money from the both of us as this can't be an unique situation. Unfortunately the director is gone on vacation for a week, so I will pay STBXW for the month and then go from there.

I am tired of feeling anxious and scared. I am tired of the threats and demands.

I am tired.