One step closer to the edge and I'm about to break

[Fightfire00]

great couple of days with the boys...making memories... will miss them very much over the 4th holiday... unfortunately I have to work...

I have one concern/question to ask and would like some input from others... I have been trying to give my W the space that she needs and only talk to her about the boys unless she initiates a conversation, and even then I try to be the one to end it.. I think I'm doing a decent job of acting "as if" I'm moving on... my concern/question is, if that's what the W wants, for me to move on and act like I'm over her and our marriage, doesn't that help HER to move on and forget about me? I know that we will be forever connected because of the kids and DB coach reminded me that we said til DEATH do us part, and it is never over as long as I don't give up HOPE for reconciliation... but if she thinks that I've moved on, and she completely moves on, what then..? would love to hear from others that are further along in this journey and let me know their thoughts...

I'm only just now coming up on 2 months into this... will I ever see the change that I'm looking for..? am I just not giving this enough time to work or do I need to try something different..? I can't go completely dark because of the boys... something to think and pray on... look forward to hearing from a vet about this...

have faith, be good and stay safe...