Stronger

[mishka422]

Thought I would drop in and say hey!

Lots of stuff going on in the land of mishka. Just the normal busyness along with some anxiety.

I've been concentrating very hard on my diet and exercise plan. It's only been a week of it so far but it's paying off. 3 pounds down so far and that is enough to motivate me to keep going. Summer is much easier for me to eat healthy since it's so blasted hot. All I want is fruit and salad. I actually have to force the protein sometimes because I just don't want it. I've found some good ways to incorporate some cold protein though...LOL. I made a fabulous Penne Rosa with shrimp for dinner last night. I replaced the usual heavy cream in the sauce with nonfat plain greek yogurt and it worked perfectly. I've been replacing cream and mayo with that in almost everything for a while now and it is so awesome. Who knew? I know...everyone knew that except me.....

The anxiety is coming from Gabe's upcoming trip to CA to visit his mom coupled with my going away just 2 weeks later for 10 days. It makes me very nervous to have him on his own for that much time. I nearly broke down last night and said something about it but decided against it. I've seen his reaction to my fears and it's not pretty. He gets riled up and angry and usually stomps out. I'm not laying that on him. If he decides to have another A while he's gone or look for something he's missing here then that's his problem. I'll just have to deal with it when it comes. I guess what I don't know won't hurt me. I hope he wouldn't do that but it's his pattern.

Sigh