I am really, really glad you noticed your symptoms and checked in with your C...we have to watch the effect of all the roller coasters of emotions our sitches and life itself these days throw at us...Are you on meds? I am not a big fan of pharms in general, I have taken St. John's Wort in the past to take the edge off without turning off the empathy chip.
I wish I had something concrete to say about your alien visitation, but I don't...peeking out of the tunnel? touch-n-go? checking that you're still around? dipping his toe in the water? what he accidentally revealed, and his actions, MIGHT mean that he is afraid of losing you, that he is conflicted because he wants to do the right thing, but not sure what form that will take. He definitely is NOT sure of what he wants, and maybe he is pushing you away to try to minimize your pain, to keep you "clean", protected somewhat, from whatever he is going through...if that makes ANY sense what so ever. Maybe sort of like when someone chooses to have their beloved hate them, rather than drag them into the muck they are heading into...lots of great stories through history on that theme...And also I could be completely wrong...just speculation.
Big hug, hang in there, keep your valuable sense of humor firing on all cylinders... !!
T^2
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
