I'm a new person

[2chiquitos]

Why does life have to be so hard? No, wait that's not true. I'm making my life hard. So Why am I making my life so hard?

I talked to one of my gossipy friends today and asked her to keep the gossip to herself. The conversation was awful... I said, how would you like it if I researched the effects of raising a child in an interracial couple? Yeah, I went there after she said she saw research that said how damaging it was for me to allow H to be so involved in our daily lives (vs. weekend visits). I said, I don't tell you how to raise D3.

She is a VERY good friend of mine, almost like a sister and I would hate to lose her but she has been pushing HER agenda on me and it frustrated me.

Also talked to H about OW. I said, whatever you want to call it, what we have is a relationship and we communicate the way we do for our kids sake, but I can't do this if you are still talking, texting or emailing OW. You disrespect me everytime you contact her and you respond to her contacting you. (I should have said, I feel...) End of story he said he's going to stop talking to her sooner than I think...
"BUT that doesn't mean we're going to (get back together). We've have done a lot of damage to each other and the people around us because of how mean we were before -all this." ie. no R in sight...

I wonder if we would have gone through all this drama this past year had he not been seeing OW after I discovered the affair?? What do you guys/gals say?