I have a headache.... and for the last week or so I have been feeling it.... that tug, you know the one, depression... it's a sneaky little bastard, but I'm thinking it's part of the reason I"m tired all the time and don't want to do much these days. Had counseling tonight, he agrees. He said as hard as it is I need to keep GAL.... I know that, but some days I just want to sleep....
Yesterday had yet another strange encounter with my alien.... which is probably why he's not home right after work tonight (plus he's increased talking to mommy again, that's never good). Yesterday evening I was minding my own business, laying on "my" bed watching tv and playing scramble with friends on my phone, when who should appear.... yep, H. He wanted attention. He told me he tries really hard to resist me, I asked him why he thought he needed to resist me, he said because it's not right, and then he said I wear what I wear to get his attention. I said, no I wear what I wear because I've lost weight and feel better about myself again. I'm not sure if he realized that he said this next part, maybe he was having a clear moment, he said something to the effect of, "You don't notice me walking back and forth trying to see what you are doing?" I said no. Honestly, I have noticed, not just last night, but other times, he will go back to "his" room, what seems like an excessive amount of times,be there a few seconds to a few minutes, and then go back to watching tv. I just chalked it up to confused, jumpy mind. But apparently he's trying to see what I'm doing.... I thought that was interesting. Who knows, again, done trying to figure out crazy... makes my head hurt! :crazy
