Because reading into things only does two things: make me neurotic thinking about all the possibilities and 2) gives me expectations which always bites me in the ass.
You don't know if your w is saying she might be moving because OW has a new job who knows. Don't read into it.
Today it was raining windy and miserable. And when I walked home I felt happy why? Because I don't feel like I felt a few weeks ago. And if that isn't worth celebrating I don't know what is!
I also had a thought today I don't miss H as a lover or a H I don't know it's something more. He was everything familiar and safe and he was home. And his smile...it isn't for me anymore. And I know mine stopped being for him a long time ago. But I know certain things will always remind both of us of this love we had...we were flawed partners. I know that. I'm being mushy because honestly I remember feeling rejected and isolated and emotionally shut out during the marriage. I just miss that intimacy with him...but I guess I started missing that years ago
