Thank you too trusting... I appreciate the kind words.
Yes I am reading DR, but have to buy DB. I am just trying to take my time, but sometimes its hard because I feel like his relationship with her is priority. Like last night I get this text "Hey honey, I won't be able to come to the house tonight like I wanted. I love you and miss you and am thinking about you. Good night and sweet dreams."-- All of this while he is probably at OW's house. This is where I sometimes feel like pushing him away, and saying be 100 percent with her, because I am tired of hurting, but them I slowly count to ten and breathe.
He will be here in a few minutes at my work to pick up his uniform, and then he will probably want me to go to breakfast with him. Its so hard to know what to do. I guess right now I am trying to figure out which technique works best for my situation. My husband is still very loving towards me, has never told me that he isn't in love with me anymore, just that he was in a bad place, and now he doesn't know how to get out of it, but I guess I feel like if he wanted out he would find the strength to end it with the OW. Its definitely hard, not black and white, and a lot of grey. For now, I am going with the just being his friend technique, until I can read both books in their entirity to see what is the best option. I am so happy I found this place, and appreciate everyone being kind and supportive of me wanting to work on my marriage, and not making me feel like I should have hit the door six months ago, its a breathe of fresh air for once.
M-28 H-28 M-9 1/2 years T- 12 years PA- 01/02/12 (still going on)
