It's kind of a cherished recipe, but I'll think about it, bug
Tonight I took over the living room TV again while H was banished to another room. After I was done watching (but still working on the blanket) H came down and said he was going to bed soon - i.e. sleeping in the living room because the guest room is too hot. I ended up sauteing some chicken for my lunch tomorrow around the time he initially said he wanted to get to bed and snapped at me about how long would it take to cook?? I responded - not too long - in an even tone. But geez, you're the one a) not sleeping in the main bedroom because you want a D and b) sleeping in the living room because your appointed quarters are "too hot" and c) getting mad at me for using common areas of the house at a reasonable time in the evening?
I have a confession . . . I feel like there isn't any hope left in my situation. H is stubborn, stubborn, proud and stubborn. He makes a decision, and he sticks with it. I know that I have been standing here for mere seconds compared to other folks but when I think about what is best for me I'm not convinced that standing is the right thing anymore. All I see is a naive, judgmental, self-righteous man who needs serious, serious help and can't or won't see how to get it or even admit that he needs it. I feel like that's a weight that I'm not really interested in trying to help him carry as a team anymore. I see a lot of things that I want in the future and I can't get them while I'm standing here.
No big decisions tonight... just ruminating (for a finite period of time) but staying still and not doing anything with these thoughts for now.
In a few days I should finally have some time to catch up on everyone else's threads! I'm so woefully behind!
