My story, my progress, my hope

[Tinman]

Tough day today. My girls left this morning for a week and it has been a quiet day leaving me to contimplate life and what should or could be.

I truly miss my W! We spent several hours together yesterday witht he kids. Had dinner and over all a good day. My W can be so playful showing off her tan lines and making inuendows. Basically giveing me hope one min and then a while later makes a comment making me feel like bad.

She has this group of friends that she hangs out with and yes there are several single guys that are part of that group. She made a comment about one the other day about how she did not have to worry about someone coming onto her because that is not how that group is. Then she points out how she shared a room at the cabin with this guy and there was not issue. Then yesterday she tells me how the night before she and this guy were sitting next to each other and comparing tans and then she meet him and his boys out so she coult do family photos for him. She was showing me some of the photos on her phone and she flipped one too far and it was of her in her new bikin pulling it down a little to show off her tan lines. She jerked the phone back and said she did not want me to see it. I asked who she sent that to and she got mad.

The thing is I am sure she is not involved with anyone but I know she likes the attention and when she got mad like that I know if is because she was being dishonest about the photo. She shows off her tan lines to me all the time so why would a photo of her doing it cause her to get mad?

Anyway, I get so confused about what she is up to. Guess it is none of my buisness but is hurts to see her act like this. I am pretty sure that if I found out that she was dating someone else that would be it for me. All big talk but I don't know how much more of this I can handle. I am trying to GAL and keep positive and I am sure everone here knows what I am feeling, this stinks!

I feel so empty