i think ng is right - something is evolving within you - and you can ride it out . the "i want to confront" mood - i think it takes over sub-consciously - i'm beginning to see it as a defense mechanism within myself. when i have to face something within myself, which is difficult - then my own self-protective mechanism kicks in, and i start looking outward for things to focus on so that i can try to avoid the growth and the pain of it.
eventually the lesson or growth is forced on one anyway - but the fighting part of it that we do, just makes the process that much more painful.
so don't fight what's brewing within you - as pema says, lean into it and the less you resist it, the less painful the bump will be.
so hang in there, friend, and just try to float a bit until it passes, and trust that it will pass and you will be one step closer to yourself
zig
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
