this is a long, long road and i think it is natural to get tired and confused.
your last few posts made me think that something is brewing within you.. some change or step of growth.. and it is uncomfortable bc you don't know where you are going yet. and there is aways an element of pain in those steps..
maybe look at the feelings under the anger from yesterday's encounter with H.
GALing is great but I wonder if you also need some of this time to let things evolve inside you.. I know sometimes I use GAL too much to distract and I end up feeling less okay just being.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13