so defeated and scared silly

[scaredsilly]

Thanks, bug. That's exactly what I'm doing. I asked him to text me when they got close so I could come out and say hello because, truth be told, she's probably a little "scared", too. We haven't seen or spoken to each other in a year.

Yes, I meant for him to be able to help me with some of my fears, especially, as they pertain to his family. I will show him my vulnerabilities and he can feel helpful and encouraging. He's let me know that it makes him feel closer to me.

It's a 180 for me because I would try to hide my insecurities and be stronger than I felt before. I was "too strong" to need help (protection) from anyone or anything. No one is that strong.