One step closer to the edge and I'm about to break

[Fightfire00]

W showed up this morning to get the boys in a brand new car... got rid of the mini van and got a smaller 4 door... went and met with a priest on friday, told me that faith makes you see things where they aren't and that W has said she doesn't love me, I can't make her, time to get prepared for divorce... wow... thought priests were supposed to be advocates of marriage... my own priests won't talk to me because W works at church part time... they see it as conflict of interest... I don't see how... I have to wonder, if the situation were reversed and I had been the one that walked out on my marriage, would they be beating down my door and ringing my cell to "talk to me"?

I'm so tired and worn out... I only sleep 3 hours at a time... I've lost 35lbs... I am trying to keep the faith, but men of God keep letting me down... I'm on an island and I'm fighting a losing battle, it seems...

needed to vent... sorry... I have nowhere else to go...

have faith, be good and stay safe...