So H and I had pretend day with the in-laws, SS, my mother, and aunt. We all went to the outlets here and had a great day. Looking at us, I don't think anyone could tell anything is wrong. I got teary eyed a few times, but kept it together mostly.
I need to update what happened Friday night though. H had decided he did not want to go to his aunt's funeral. So we arrived at his parents quite a bit after if was over. We hung out with them a bit and talked and laughed.
We then went to watch some TV and just chill out after the long drive. H left the room and when he came back, asked me what was on TV. I told him something he probably didn't want to watch. He asked what it was. I told him 20/20 was talking about mistresses. The show was actually on cheating but that segment was on mistresses. He looks at me and says its fine. I say okay, and go get my Nook to read a chapter of HTIYMWTAI. I wasn't going to focus on the show when he so obviously was.
Anyway, about 30 mins later H rushes out of the room to the restroom. By this time, I'm in the bedroom getting my things ready for bed. I hear all these noises like someone is hitting the wall or dropping something over and over again. H comes into the bedroom and I see he is crying. I ask what is wrong. He goes into he was so selfish not to come to the funeral when his aunt would have done anything for him. I tried to console, but he's a mess. He keeps sobbing, and I then realize this isn't about his aunt. I lift his head up so I can see his eyes and ask him to tell me what's wrong. He just leans on me and cries some more. Then he says he's tired. I ask like exhausted from the trip. He says I'm tired and exhausted. At that moment I finally realized I'm not just dealing with a H who is acting stupid and wants to leave. This man is really having a MLC or something.
I ask him if he wants to be alone. He says just for a little while so he can stretch out on the bed. I go to leave and he thanks me for always making sure he's okay and being here for him. I tell him that's my job until...its not.
He eventually cries himself to sleep. I wake him up so I can get in the bed and he's still crying. By the time he gets out of the shower, he's relatively ok. And then I started getting a little annoyed. He doesn't want to be married to me anymore because I hurt him SO bad, but can use my shoulder to cry on? Why would you want support from someone who hurt you so bad?
He's been attentive, and especially snuggly since this latest episode. But I could see yesterday that the wall was definitely back up. I'm leaving today since I have to work tomorrow. He's not leaving until Tuesday. I think the next couple of days will be a nice break for both of us. I am wondering if he'll tell the in-laws about him leaving while he's here. I would rather be in on the conversation, but there's nothing I can do if he does.
