Your posts here are really helpful - you are making such important discoveries about yourself and how to live a good life.
And what you said about your marriage really turned on a light for me:
I didn't start believing in my M until it was basically over. Sure I acted like a wife most days, but I never "felt" like one, if that makes sense. I mean, sure I loved him. I didn't know how to show him that because I never put any effort into believing I should have to. Nor effort into finding how to love HIM the way he needed to be loved.
I always felt a bit odd saying using the terms 'husband' and 'wife' in relation to H and me, for some reason. And yes I loved him, but didn't think i needed to put effort into showing it. Didn't think I should have to. WOW! That lesson came at a big cost.
