Tomorrow is 1 week I haven't looked at his FB page. It went pretty quick. Yesterday I randomly thought about once he told me that he could tell me good things about his GF and their R but didn't want to hurt my feelings. And I remembered when we met he'd had an on/off 5 year R and he told me crazy things about her. And I wondered how he could have stayed with someone like that for so long. And I thought I wonder what he says about me to GF if she thinks that. Because she's younger and obviously a bit silly taking on this man paying for everything etc. Anyway I just thought how this has taught me there's always more to the story don't be blinded by what you want to hear look better at te motives behind the stories people tell about themselves. The next 2-3 months are going to he quite busy for me. I have exciting work projects, my friend's wedding, my mom's visiting, I'm really happy about that. I'm getting back that WAW feeling when I felt free, like the world was my oyster, happy that I being dragged down by him. I felt a smudge of that last night walking home. I feel confident and happy. I happened to be in a place yesterday afternoon that I'd always dreaded going. And I thought wow I was SO insecure why did I not feel comfortable here before? No one here is better than me! I'm not sure if it was the weight gain or the codependency but I'm so happy to not feel that anymore
