Still Afloat and moving Forward

[forward]

BM, Your H seems to be rather...searching. It seems that perhaps he IS interested in the M but is still blundering about.

You could just let it be for a while.

[BeingMe]

I will try and let it be for awhile, Forward. Not sure how long I can handle this not-so-new-H-anymore, after almost 7 years post-affair. Maybe this is who he is now, and original H is too far gone.

'Eh! I will continue pursuing GAL activities. This evening I went to an author's coffee meeting. It was fun to talk about writing, and the intricacies of various parts of the art. The people were great ... everyone chatting, laughing, joking, etc. And, I learned some interesting new tips. Then, collected S25 from airport after his trip to Europe.

Life is good, despite my M (which is not boring, at least).

[BeingMe]

Phew! MRI is clear ... I live for another year.

[braveheart]

BeingMe, Please don't look at it that way, look at it as one step closer to being cancer free!!

[BeingMe]

My comment is somewhat tongue in cheek, BH ... it rhymes, so it worked for me. Ha! At the moment, I am cancer free. I think of the next year as worry free until the next MRI. I can forget about it until then.

In the meantime, I live my life. I have been thinking about volunteering somewhere ... Red Cross perhaps. I still have two years uni left and then my D19 and I graduate. I will take it one course at a time, one day at a time, and not look too far into the future. Now is when I should be living to the best of my ability, GAL, unloading the toxic burden of H's issues (although, lately, he's been somewhat communicative ... not as fully as I would like, but for him, quite something). I think of Wendy's list of what she would like in a future H ... I would definitely want someone who can talk about everything and anything. I am that type of person ... my children and I can chat about politics, ufo's, ghosts, science, history, writing, books that we've read, and the list goes on. My H, sadly, gets bored with most of our "chatter". And, I get bored with his constant discussion on his projects at work. Don't mind sometimes, but it gets a bit much, almost like his work is all that counts or interests him.

I'm off to our condo in city where my D25 and grandchildren live. I'll be there for the summer. Soooooo looking forward to it.

[job]

I'm very happy to read that everything went okay w/your MRI. It's always an anxious time prior to the scan and I don't know about you, but many hold their breath until they get the results.

I'm glad you are going to the condo. Enjoy your time there and get some much needed rest.

[BeingMe]

Happy Canada Day to all the Canadian posters. Tomorrow, I drop H off early in the a.m. at the airport, and then spend the rest of the weekend (I hope) with D19. Or, I'll go to a friends.

Hope our American friends have a brilliant Independence Day.

[seeking answers]

BeingMe,

Glad to hear the good news on your MRI!

Now go have some fun with your D and grandbabies!

[forward]

(although, lately, he's been somewhat communicative ... not as fully as I would like, but for him, quite something)

Being, I find myself thinking, again, that this situation still has hope.

[BeingMe]

Ugh! I think I did something wrong ... tipped my toe in the water, so to speak. I dropped H off at the airport, and when I got home, I texted him "have a safe trip, im off to bed, LU" and he responded "good night Debs". Not going to do the LU again. If it comes up, he'll have to be the one.