Nothing has really changed in my sitch, i'm just looking at it at a little differently because I really thought my W would have brought up an R talk by now.
What Chatterbug has pointed out to me about the OM even being in the picture in whatever form or context, it's a barrier to anything at the moment. I needed my eyes opening up to that fact & to realise the situation for what it really is.
I'm just going to take a few days really looking at myself & what I want and then I'll put some goals into place (acheivable goals for ME).
I'm gonna try & read as much of the No More Mr Nice Guy book tonight before my W comes home. I didn't like the sound of the title, 'cause I thought it would be a book to promote being a jerk, but so far it's really good.
Although things have been getting me down lately, there's no rush to do anything drastic to change this plateau. Things will change at the pace they change, no matter what happens next.
I am noticing a bit (ok a lot) of resentment creeping in on my part, not so good for our interactions, but it is helping so much with detaching, it's the GAL I need to make my priority & I'm looking forward to it.
P.S.
Chatterbug - I do enjoy the dancing on my own, but I've decided to pull out for now, 'cause I missed 4 weeks in a row & I'm going to maybe go back in September, when the new term starts
Bill
Me 34 W 32 D 9 S 6 M: 9 years T: 12 Bomb: 02/11/12 EA/PA: 12/17/11 - ongoing Moved out: Oct 2012 Joint Filed for D: 2/11/13
