so defeated and scared silly

[scaredsilly]

i see your point, bug. being on the boat could be seen as a commitment. ML is totally private and no one but us knows.

i do see him agreeing to go as a BIG baby step. we will be spending the day together, doing something that has always been special to both of us.

it will be fun but i will not "expect" any forward movement after it's over. he's still thinking things through and that's good. he should. we didn't get to this place only because of me.

thanks for your encouragement!