I'm back....

[blindsided1]

I just posted on your thread GM. Sorry I only seem to pop on here occassionally. I am in a far different place these days. My ExH is ridiculous. It doesn't matter if we are in public or not, he has grabbed me inappropriately, texts me and asks me to send picture, he has even exposed himself to me on numerous occassions, he finally has slowed down on trying to have sex with me, gross. He just won't stop sometimes. I have learned how to hang up on him, walk away and not respond to texts. I even ignore his phone calls because I know why he is calling. 9.9 times out of 10, he is not calling to talk to his D. He is calling to talk dirty. It's pathelogical. And, I know that I am not the only one he is being inappropriate with. I used to think this was funny, mainly because he reminded me how much of a pig he can be and how LUCKY AND THANKFUL that he is no longer MY problem and now he is OW's problem. I figure she must have a clue by now. But, like me, I'm sure she is ignoring the red flags. I did. I was on the path to marry him and nothing was going to dissuade me.
They are getting M next month. When he told me, I think he thought I would be upset. Sad thing is, I laughed. I didn't mean to. I just could not even imagine this man marrying again. I stopped myself immediately. But, everytime I think of him marrying her I am conflicted: I giggle then I actually feel slightly bad for OW. Oh well, not my problem. Love that!!!!
I am doing well. I have a wonderful new job. My baby is not a baby anymore, she is doing great and is beautiful and smart and fun and very, very willful. But, I'm okay with that. I want her to push and be outgoing and independent and willful. But, boy, she keeps me on my toes...to say the least.
I look back on my old posts and I think ..... I wish I had done things differently. I wish I had been stronger. I wish I had DB'd better! I made a lot of mistakes. But, I was in a hole a dark, dark hole and could not climb out. I am so thankful that I am where I am, now. I hope that I can help some of these newcomers and be of some comfort. That is my quest....to give back to my DB community.
xoxo