Good take aways from your trip w/ the other couple. I find myself observing couple dynamics all the time as well and find myself learning from them and wishing to have another chance to put some of what I've learned into practice.
As far your time w/ h. Any interaction that is not negative is positive to me.
Why did you not want to ask him if he was happy or not? What is the worst that could happen?
As u said Bug, u have been at this a while and I totally respect you for it. That is a great list of positives, no matter how small, BUT (sorry Mach)
-Your H is not filling any emotional needs for you and I know you are filling as much as you can for yourself but do you have a pull to want to have intimacy, companionship, partnership, etc..?
What's that anxiety pit in your stomach stemming from?
I'm finding lately that my own personal needs (the ones that I am unable to fill myself) are starting to become more important to me than waiting for my w to make a decision to re-connect. This is very strange for me because I have always been a giver as well as co-dependent.
I'm also having an issue w/ the lack of communication (not saying u are). We haven't had a r talk in 6 months or so and I've decided recently that that is not working for me.
I have been very diciplined w/ the DB principles and have not initiated any talk because I want her to make the decision to discuss things w/o my influence but it is to a point where it is not working for me to discuss things every 6+ months. Not communicating is what got us where we are.
I'm not projecting my sitch on you but it is working for you to not discuss anything at all for so long?
Are you hesitant because you are waiting for him to engage or are you being stubborn and/or scared to bring anything up?
