from the WAS to being walked away on

[strongerthanever]

I have began to notice that. I would cry every now and then, but it wouldn't be because of my sitch, being lonely or anything like that. I became aware that I was feeling as if I were reliving some of the bad memories again and the pain would feel very real and raw.

And then I would ask myself, after all this time, why are you feeling like this? Because I was so busy being a waw or lbs that I was distracted.

So I allow myself to feel the pain, but not obsess over it. Before I can give love to any future r I need to love that hurt person inside of me. I think confronting the pain, feeling it and allowing myself to let it go (can't be an excuse forever) is how to start. At least that's what feels right.

I do know it's right there on the surface though BC it's so easy for that raw pain to sneak up on me.