Sounds like it might be time to focus on GAL. What have you been doing in that area?? Make plans for yourself with friends and give yourself something to look forward to.
Plus, do you want to be seen as a "needy" person? I say this, because I was SOOOO that person when this all started for me. It isn't attractive. How can you gain back your independence of being happy all on your own?? What are your strengths? Can you focus more on the things that you love to do and the things that make you YOU?? What are your hobbies?
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I have very much been there... REALLY, I have. These forums have also been a lifesaver for me. I hope you start feeling better soon!
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.