So H and I hung out last night like normal. We watched the NBA Draft (something I never would have done before, even though I LOVE basketball...go figure!), and headed to bed. I was going to initiate ML, but didn't. Yesterday was an emotional day for both of us. It might not have gone so well. There's always tonight. LOL
Also, there's something to be said for guilt I guess. LOL I'm laying in bed while H takes his car to get his oil changed. He will then come back home to bring me breakfast and then switch to my car so he can take that for an oil change. I offered to drive my car over to the shop, but he said that was okay, and I should just get some rest. I said okay, if that's what he wanted to do. Came to kiss me on his way out, and here I am in chill mode.
Some good friends told me that he needs to feel useful now because of the job situation, and I should let him do the things he wants to do. I'm going to be honest and say I feel like he gets to take the easy route of appeasing his guilt, while plotting his escape. And I can feel myself getting angry about it, the more I think about it.
Since he wants to leave so bad, why not just go? I wouldn't care how broke I was. I'd find somewhere else to sleep. I've done it before, so I know how it feels to just want to go. But he isn't going anywhere. And I want to know WHY?
