As long as OM is in the picture do not waste time thinking about R talks. She knows how much it hurts you with this disrespect. Let this action speak more than anything she says.
I'm not 100% sure she is still dancing with him, because of something she said after the bomb about him not wanting to dance on a Friday night, but if I'm being honest with myself I'd know if she wasn't dancing with him.
I need to stop living in this state of mind & this limbo, because it really is stopping me from growing.
At the moment I am thankful that I am still living at home with my kids and that Divorce papers haven't been served to me, but as much as I want things to work out, I can't wait forever. This dance class that she's in doesn't just have the OM in it her friends are there as well and she loves dancing.
I understand I can only work on me & there is a lot of work still left to do, I'm just sick of feeling like this & not being in control of my choices. I want my life back.
I really think my goals need to be totally geared towards GAL at the moment, because I really need to snap out of this.
I'm making plans to go out with the kids tomorrow afternoon, meet up with a friend for lunch on my birthday & take the kids out for a meal on my birthday. I've also got my cousins stag party next Friday & a couple of Graduation thingies in July.
I just need to get out there and connect with my friends more.
Me 34 W 32 D 9 S 6 M: 9 years T: 12 Bomb: 02/11/12 EA/PA: 12/17/11 - ongoing Moved out: Oct 2012 Joint Filed for D: 2/11/13
